I manifested you
I told you too 
I had all my answers when you asked
What I had spoken 
That brought you to me 
I would be proud 
            Of you and proud to be with you 
When I cried at night 
You held me
And you learned to sense me
Sense when I needed you
                                    you’d come 
You feel secure, a stable home, even in the storms
Especially in the storms 
Your hands are big, worn, and worked 
Because that’s who you are 
With you I am safe
                        All of me is safe 
                                    And at the end of the day 
                                                            That’s all I can ask for 
I sat at the dinner table
And told my mom and my girlfriends that my person
Would be all those things 
Then I met you
And you were all those things and more
You had me in awe 
Writing in my diary 
That you might be the one 
            I sketched your initials at the bottom of the page 
Like a fifth grader 
I moved across the country, alone,
And I met you 
Everything aligned 
 
when we were together 
 
I fell fast and I fell hard
 
It was chemical 
 
when the glass shattered
 
Part of me cracked 
 
It was chemical 
 
I manifested you 
But it took something from me 
There are scars
            keeping you close to me